Saving Soph

So its been a week since i’ve posted. I am historically bad at being consistent and so I guess its not surprising I haven’t posted.

But I have really been keeping up with the other habits. Mostly going to the gym regularly, meditating, journalling and really die hard challenging my thoughts.

Im off work at the moment, not sure if that’s a good thing or not. But I think I would struggle to look after myself to the extent that I am doing at the moment as well as be at work.

So yeah its going ok. Ive joined a support group for the EUPD and had my first meeting on Saturday. It was sad but almost comforting in a way that a lot of people in the group said how hard it is go get help on the NHS but then that’s why I have decided to work this out myself.

I also ended up going back to Lancaster earlier this week. I went to get my summer clothes. It was weird being in the house. I didn’t like it at all. My head is totally wrecked really over everything but all I keep telling myself when im having thoughts like that is, you can get better. This will all be ok.

So ie just got to keep moving forward. Journalling, meditating, exercising, using my flow headset. And challenging the thoughts. I really feel like im spinning so many plates but I have to recognise that whatever im doing as long as I have the will to want to get better then im going in the right direction.

As I have said before, this will be the hardest thing I have ever and will probably ever do but I am worth the effort and I just need to keep showing up for myself.